Thursday, April 29, 2010

balik hari ni...

Jalan yang dilalui saban minggu..

Gunung Jerai kelihatan dari jauh
hari ni dah nampak sawah padi telah siap dibajak

jalan-jalan lurus merentasi sawah

cuaca yang terang, angin tiup senang ..
luasnya "jelapang padi"
Hari ni balik ke rumah dari tempat kerja..dah seminggu ...
Hari ni mama pandu perlahan, sengaja sebab ingin mengambil gambar sawah padi yang telah siap dibajak, cuaca terang dan mama ingin rakam buat kesekian kalinyanya daerah yang mama lalui saban minggu.
kawasan jauh dari sibuk kota raya..

Wednesday, April 28, 2010


pokok ni tak berbunga sekarang.
yang ni dah mula berbunga..

anak kucing kesayangan Fariq ni dah sihat..

buluh madu dah elok tumbuhnya..

Hari ini mama membaca satu cerita dari e-mail yang ada kat kotak mail. Rasa macam hiba pula hari ni. Dalam sibuk-sibuk kerja sajalah mama letakkan cerita tu kat sini...

To those who are married, .. Not married .. and soon to be married, I hope you will be touched with this story...


When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces.

The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning.. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again.

I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead.. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more.
Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage! If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you. If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Puteri mama

minuman coklat untuk puteri
nasi daun pisang, udang masala dan ayam goreng

makanan puteri yang mengidam

baru nak letak kuah..

Anak-anak mama yang jauh,

Mama cuti hari ni dan kebetulan puteri ke 2 ada di rumah. Hari ni hari jadi puteri. Puteri mama ini akan jadi ibu hujung tahun ni. kata puteri beliau teringin nak makan nasi daun pisang..Alahai.. nasi daun pisang..masakan India pula yang diidamkannya.

Telah lama benar mama tak makan tengahari atau makan malam bersama keluarga kat luar, asyik makan kat dapur rumah ja, so hari ni sempena hari jadi puteri, maka mama bertiga orang pergilah ke bandar , cari nasi daun pisang kat Chennai restaurant.

Walau mama tak berapa berkenan makan makanan macam ni, demi puteri yang disayangi mama ikut jugalah. Sungguh seronok melihat puteri makan dengan berselera. Agaknya nanti akan ada mirip Shahrul Khan kot..itulah usik HB pada puteri. Puteriku, apa pun dugaan hidup ini tempuhilah, kerana Allah maha mengetahui dan sentiasa merahmati hidup kita umat manusia.

Dan cuti hari ni, di rumah kita ini mama banyak menghabiskan masa mengemas dan mencuci dapur kita yang mama sering tinggalkan. Terkadang mama terasa amat terkilan bekerja jauh dan tak dapat menjaga rumah kita ini sebaik-baiknya. Tapi mama tahu, 5 tahun lagi apabila mama bersara, mama akan ceriakan dapur dan rumah kita, insyaallah.

Mama rindu untuk berkebun, menjahit dan memasak sepenuhnya. Sekarang pun mama lakukan tapi asyik teringat kerja-kerja dengan pelajar.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

bersama pelajar

Pelajar-pelajar melihat karya-karya di galeri
Berada di laman arca

Suasana galeri

Sekiranya kamu bercita-cita menjadi pendidik....suatu hari mungkin "UPSI".

Assallamualaikum ,
Mama memandu agak jauh dua tiga hari ni. Dari Jitra ke Tanjong Malim ke Universiti Pendidikan Sultan Idris dan balik. Mengiringi dan menyertai ceramah seni dan melawat pameran hasil karya STPM. Mama membawa bersama 4 pelajar perempuan calon STPM. Mama mahu pelajar-pelajar ni peka dengan arah tuju mereka dalam Seni Visual STPM. Seperti kata Prof M. Mustaffa dalam ceramahnya pagi 15/4/2010 (ceramah pagi tadi).. Seni Visual perlu kritikal thinking. Mengikuti ceramah Prof Dr M Mustafa dan ceramah catan Dr Fauzi .
Mama tahu bahasa-bahasa ceramah itulah isi-isi penting untuk menjawab soalan-soalan .
Pelajar-pelajar mama juga dapat bertemu rakan seangkatan dari sekolah lain seperti dari Pontian, Muar, Batu Pahat , Perlis, Kuala Kubu di dalam auditorium tersebut.Mama juga dapat berjumpa kawan -kawan lama sekuliah . Bertanya kabar tentang keluarga dan kerjaya. yang lebihnya bercerita tentang pelajar masing-masing yang akan menduduki STPM hujung tahun..dan kerja kursus yang dalam pembikinan. Mengunjungi Galeri Seni dan melihat Catan, Anyaman, Arca, cetakan dan lain-lain diharap dapat di manafaatkan oleh pelajar mama ini.

Friday, April 9, 2010

dari kebun

dari sudut yang dah dibersihkan.

rebung buluh madu..

kemarau hari tu..banyak dah kering

cerita buat adi

pegaga ..musim kemarau hari tu..nasib baik banyak lagi yang ada
mata itik


Anak-anak mama yang jauh,
hari ni mama teringat nak makan ulam daun 'mata itik'. Dah lama tak makan kerana tak sempat balik ke rumah hujung minggu. Minggu ni ..hari Jumaat hari ni..bila mama balik ke rumah kita..siap mengemas rumah, sapu habuk sana sini, mama terasa nak makan ulam daun mata itik dan daun pegaga. Mama dan HB ke kebun kita kat tepi hutan di kaki gunung Jerai tu..cari daun ulam. Mama tengok kebun kita dah bersih, tak semak macam dulu-dulu lagi , pokok buluh madu dah subur tumbuh, pokok salat dah besar dan pokok pisang sungguh ramah ..banyaknya yang berbuah..mama balik dengan pelbagai ulam ... Hari ni mama, HB dan puteri akan makan tengahari -nasi ,ulam-ulam serta ...apa mama nak masak tengahari ni..lama dapur tak terusik..masak lemak daun ubi atau rebung madu masak gulai kuning.. mama berblog dulu sebelum masak. Jumpa lagi..banyak kerja yang perlu mama buat..rumah kita dah macam merajuk dah..

Saturday, April 3, 2010

bunga liar

tumbuhan yang tumbuh sendiri di luar pagar..apabila berbunga nampak cantik juga 'purple' Morning glory


kalau dapat mama nak pindahkan image ni ke atas kanvas..semoga ada masa..kena cari masa juga di antara masa-masa sibuk..bila dah dapat title 'datin' bulan November ni..tentu lagi sibuk..

sudut jiwa ini.

Suvarnabhumi airport - kiri kanan ada karya seni
di laluan
yang ini juga
yang ini di Chiang Mai, dalam bilik
Lawatan mama ke Thailand tempuhari turun naik kapal terbang di Suvarnabhumi Airport (Bangkok) sebanyak 4 kali. Mama tak jemu melaluinya kerana passage way untuk keluar masuk menemukan mama dengan paparan karya seni yang 'very interesting. Mama mencari idea , kot boleh di imitasi di sekolah mama.. Media dan teknik yang tersendiri menonjol identiti negara Gajah.
Begitu juga di kawasan-kawasan tertentu , mama melihat arca-arca dibina mewakili seni Thailand tersendiri. Kalau arca subjeknya gajah, jangan dikira..serata ceruk ada bentuknya.

hatta jagung kering pun dibuat arca.( diPattaya)

Friday, April 2, 2010

Nampuron Tavieesin , Hotspring, Chiang Rai

Lawatan ke Chiang Mai tempuhari masih dalam ingatan. Dari Chiang Mai ke Chiang Rai mama dan ahli rombongan menaiki van dan dapat singgah di Nampuron Tavieesin . Di sini terdapat hotspring (pancutan airpanas}. Kalau airpanas yang keluar dari bumi, mama pernah mandi di airpanas Ulu Legong di Baling tetapi yang ini air panasnya memancut tinggi ke atas. Taman rekreasi yang dibangunkan dengan baik oleh Thailand sebagai tarikan pelancong. Di sini pelancong boleh lakukan natural spa sendiri..legalah kaki yang dah letih berjalan apabila berendam di dalam air yang panas-panas suam di situ. Di bahagian air panas yang menggelegak, terdapat wanita tempatan menjual telur ayam dan puyuh , kita boleh membeli dan merebusnya sendiri. Mama tertarik pada bakul comel yang berisi telur, kita boleh merendam telur itu sendiri ke dalam air panas atau membeli terus yang telah masak. Harganya 30 THB sahaja. mama tidak membeli telur puyuh, mama meminta untuk membeli raga-raga comel tu. wanita-wanita di situ senyum-senyum dan bercakap antara mereka..rasanya mereka berkata'orang beli telur, makcik ni nak beli raga..pelik betul". Raga-raga comel itu dijual juga kepada mama dengan harga 5 THB(lebih kurang 50 sen) Sekarang kat rumah, mama dah sangkutkan raga-raga tu kat porch sebagai sudut seni mama..mama nak letakkan pokok-pokok bunga kecil. Di sekitar kawasan hotspring ini terdapat gerai cenderamata. Sempat juga mama membeli 3 helai kain paro untuk puteri mama, cantik tenunan dan hiasan kain paro Thai ini. Terdapat gerai - gerai makanan juga di sini. Ada se buah gerai makanan Islam, dan kami sempat merasa roti canai yang sedap, tiada kuah kari cuma di cicah susu. Fariq memberitahu mama, "tak sangka di tempat macamni roti canainya best " Di sini mama sisipkan video comel yang anakanda Fariq sempat rakam, cara telur-telur direbus dan itulah mama sewaktu membeli raga-raga comel bersama Cikgu Norma dan memilih raga telur puyuh.
untuk maklumat yang lebih terperinci layarilah websites ni.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Menam Chao Phraya ..

Menyusuri sungai ini, terkenang mama semasa menyusuri Sungai Melaka, bezanya sungai Chao Phraya ini lebar luas dan bersih juga..